"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." — Marilyn Monroe
Woke up sick! Yay…………… :(
Yesterday. Went running with Remy, worked out at home, then ate cereal with banana while watching HIMYM. The Crunch and Burn workout is no joke, I’m sore from head to toe but in the end, I know it’s all worth it.
Because I feel like you’re slipping away. But you’re still lacking in effort, whereas I’m putting in my all.
I’ve learned to stop complaining and start doing. I’ve always complained about how I feel fat and I’ve always talked about doing something about it, and although I’ve changed my diet plenty of times and did some workout here and there, I was never pleased with myself. I’ve lost 5-10 pounds at one point by just changing the way I ate but without working out, my body would intake food and store it as fat rather than digest and get out. So I’ve learned that trying to maintain my weight lose was more difficult this way. So now I eat whatever I want, just in small portions and I work out to help my metabolism speed up so my body wont store anything I don’t need.
Other than wanting to slim down, I’m feeling great. Walking Remy and working out have helped me release stress. It might take a longer process to lose a couple of pounds but no lie, I feel way more healthier now than I’ve ever felt before.
There’s always some kind of reason behind every action.
So don’t provoke me and tell me you did it “just because”. If it was a test or if it was to piss me off, then tell me. I’d rather hear that than “just because”. Fuck that, I don’t play that shit.
I can’t deal with any of this right now.
Summer is just getting worse and worse… I can’t deal with this anymore…
FML.
AFJSLKFJSLKFJSLFDKN… FUCK.
Student loans are not fun… Deadline to pay off summer session is due in 2 days and my parents just decided to take loans. Which is good because there’s no interest included for the first 6 months after I graduate but… it takes about 2-3 days for it to process, and uhhh yeah.. On a time crunch right now. Hopefully it processes fast because I don’t think I can deal with paying off 3500 for summer courses.
What’s the point of being a bio major if I can’t even handle it? I mean shit, I want to do something with my life but really? Do i really have to learn about all these irrelevant ass bio courses when it has nothing to do with my future career. Okay… maybe it’s not irrelevant but damn man… I need to pass this class. I can’t fail. Let’s hope there’s a curve that’ll boost me up because if I fail. Well that’s the end for me.
And FUCK. Everything pound I’ve lost and every inch of fat I cut off has fucking reappeared… It took me months to finally cut down and maintained a decent figure. Now… Yeah.. FUCK. I’ve worked hard, ate healthy, and sacrificed so much to slim down a little. It’s so hard to lose weight, but so easy to gain it back. It’s not fair…
Summer is starting off HORRIBLE… I need to make this summer productive and NOT useless.
